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Have a Fabulous Christmas! [04 Dec 2007|10:34pm]

The Body Shop is back in Glorietta! Visit our Christmas Bazaar at the Ground Floor Lobby of G4 and get as much as 50% off on your favorite items! You can also visit us at Greenhills and Festival Mall and our Christmas villages across the different malls :)

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Love to Experience [02 Nov 2007|10:21pm]

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[01 Sep 2007|07:21pm]
picking up?
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[25 Jun 2007|08:26pm]
[ mood | blank ]

recovering.

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[23 Apr 2007|07:31pm]
I shut up.
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Loved [19 Apr 2007|09:27pm]
Someone once told me that I'm not hard to love.

And I somewhat resented that.

Because IF I wasn't hard to love, then how come I felt so alone, used, and unimportant instead of feeling happy, feeling like I belong.

But now I know that I can be loved. And really loved at that.

I don't want a broken you. When you whine, that's not you. That's not the Stephanie that I know. That's not the Stephanie I fell in love with. I never told you to leave your family. I want you to have both me and Teo - and you do have both of us. I understand that you have to find yourself, and I want to protect you while you're doing that. I love you so much. And even when we fight, even when I hurt you, I hold my anger back because I love you.

It now rests in my hands. I just want to find myself, discover the roots of my insecurities, my worries. After then I know I will be able to be the strong, responsible, thinking person that I normally was, and hopefully am.

I wish time stops while I am in this search. But it moves. And I miss out on a lot of things while I continue my journey. But I will not stop. The faster that I get to better myself, the faster that I can make things right.

I love you mom, I love you Teo, I love you cuddie. And someday soon, I will make everything work out between us all.
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[16 Mar 2007|08:50am]
I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much. - Mother Teresa
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out of breath [14 Mar 2007|12:00am]
[ mood | tears welling up my eyes ]

I told myself not to be overcome by this hurt...

but I'm starting to feel it. and it's too damn heavy to bear.

I only did what I know would be best for you. you deserve much much better than I can ever offer you.

I never left for selfish reasons, although your world will tell you that. I left because we all know I am the least capable to be a mother to you - mentally, emotionally, spiritually, financially. I tried and the hell I did. if your mama says that your dad is making up for what he did not do for you before, I, on the other hand, did not have anything to make up for. probably not until now.

and more importantly, I never left you for someone else. and I will not ask you to side with me, but the time that I spent away from you, I was either working, asleep or making use of my time for worthwhile things, contrary to what people say. and I will not ask you to choose even if I can tell you outright that I got the most hurtful, below the belt comments from those I have been working hard for, those whom I always kept in mind as a driving force and as my inspiration to continue proving myself worthy to be your mother.

I will not ask for your understanding, and I know I have hurt you a lot. but I just want to tell you that you mean a lot to me, that's why I had to remove myself from the picture. ask anyone and they will tell you I have not been the best mother you could have.

love your mama, much more than I ever loved you and her. love your family the way the world knows how. don't be like me. your mama always said I have a very weird way of making you feel that I love you. and questions me why I am doing this to you.

I love you, Teo. if there's anything you must know.

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[20 Feb 2007|08:00am]
to feel is such a good thing.

i am happy :) <3
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[18 Jan 2007|09:13am]
[ mood | tug-of-war ]

I am a daughter, mother, and soon-to-be wife.

That's all that i know right now, cuddie. That's all that i am right now.

}!{
bcbianca, dear, i will be eternally grateful if you will really be able to help this "charity case" as soon as you come back. *sigh* But well, our talk kinda cheered me up. It's been quite a while since i let out all my itsy-bitsy frustrations and, as you aptly put it, desire for silly frivolities. I don't mind not having much time for myself, or resources for that matter, but yeah, it comes to a point when you'd want something for yourself. Oh, please, please, my dear. I don't mean to, but i will bug you regarding this for now. :P

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teo, teo, teo [29 Dec 2006|10:32am]
[ mood | :( ]

daddy has his own family. mommy has her own family. where do i belong?

dear teo,

you may be young, but it doesn't mean you don't understand. maybe not fully, but i know you do.

a lot of people were expecting that your dad and i would make the ultimate sacrifice and mend our relationship - for your sake. and yes, i am guilty. i probably didn't try to the very best of my ability. but it doesn't mean that your future is not important to me.

i cannot stress how much i would want to give you the perfect, complete family. but who dictates that anyway? i would rather be in good, amicable terms with your father without us being together, rather than us together but always battling it out with each other.

as for me having my "own" family... i never said you're not my family. sure, i am with someone else now, but i never meant to impose you to like him. remember, though, that i promised myself and you as well that i will never introduce anyone else to you unless i am sure that he is worthy (at the very least) of your time. i know it is taxing on your part - i know that first-hand - but if you must know, we are already thinking of your future and how we will raise you. you are first and foremost my son, and whoever would want to be with me should want to be with you as well. i will not force it on you, but let me tell you that he is willing to be a real father to you. you may not see it yet, but we are working towards us being a family. everybody's dream for you. to be a complete family.

i am not closing your father out. he will forever be your biological father. and i am not taking away any right of his to be a father to you. if he does, that is his own decision, i did not impose that.

*sigh* you just don't know how much it breaks my heart whenever you say things like that. it makes me feel incompetent, unfit to be your mother. but i know you understand. maybe not fully, but you do.

i love you, if there's anything you must know.

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[17 Dec 2006|12:29am]
[ mood | awake ]

teo did a Maddox today and called Vergil "Dad".

...

at least 'di na siya nakiki-Cuddie :P

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metamorphosis [06 Dec 2006|03:54pm]
it will come at least once in a person's lifetime that he will search for who he is, not because he's experiencing burn-out from his job or he's bouncing back from a break-up, but because he desires to dig as deep into his soul and get to know himself.

this year, i have been in such an emotional rollercoaster enough for me to be thrown into the loony bin. a test of moral character, a test of friendship, a test of values, a test of respect, a test of love - name it, went through it.

but i have never imagined that i would be given a new lease in life.

my pains of growing up under sheer peer pressure, my hurt over lost friends, my agony over my lifetime load, my suffering and anger towards authority and having to stifle emotions, my misery to find what completes me - gone.

there will always be remnants of these memories, but i will never see them they way i did. everything was given new meaning, was turned around.

i am deeply sorry for all those i have hurt.

and i am thankful for those who have remained with me until the end.

i love you.
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[09 Nov 2006|10:30pm]
[ mood | miss you a lot ]

i love you, Teo, if there's anything you must know

i didn't leave you for personal - read: SELFISH reasons - but rather, i was forced into a situation wherein i had to think of your welfare. or at least your welfare for the time being.

i will come back for you, Teo. i will miss you a lot. but mommy needs to grow up first and find herself. but i won't take long. i promise.
just always remember, you may not understand everything that i do, but everything that i do is for you.

i love you, Teo, if there's anything you must know.

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[03 Oct 2006|10:55am]
}!{ heard this on the radio at a very awkward moment
you wanted more/tonic

love is tragic
love is bold
you will always
do what you are told

love is hard
love is strong
you will never say that you were wrong
i don't know when i got bitter
but love is surely better when it's gone

'cause you wanted more
more than i could give
more than i could handle
in a life that i can't live
you wanted more
more than i could bear
more than i could offer
for a love that isn't there

love is color
love is loud
love is never saying you're too proud
love is trusting
love is honest
love is not a hand to hold you down
i don't know when i got bitter
but love is surely better when it's gone

i got to pick me up when i am down
i got to get my feet back on the ground
i got to pick me up when i am down

you wanted more
more than i could love
more than i could offer
the harder you would shove
you wanted more
more than i could give
more than i could handle
in a life that i can't live

}!love is tragic
love is bold
you will always
do what you are told

love is hard
love is strong
you will never say that you were wrong
i don't know when i got bitter
but love is surely better when it's gone

'cause you wanted more
more than i could give
more than i could handle
in a life that i can't live
you wanted more
more than i could bear
more than i could offer
for a love that isn't there

love is color
love is loud
love is never saying you're too proud
love is trusting
love is honest
love is not a hand to hold you down
i don't know when i got bitter
but love is surely better when it's gone

i got to pick me up when i am down
i got to get my feet back on the ground
i got to pick me up when i am down

you wanted more
more than i could love
more than i could offer
the harder you would shove
you wanted more
more than i could give
more than i could handle
in a life that i can't live

}!{ on the other side of things
i got myself a cuddie :)
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oops... i did it again [18 Sep 2006|12:56pm]
[ mood | goooood morning ]

...

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[18 Sep 2006|01:04am]
[ mood | fiber-enriched ]

comments have become rarer and rarer. i guess because i haven't written anything in detail, anything substantial, anything long, anything relatable, anything interesting, or anything at all, for that matter. so what is up with the short entries anyway?

the past month showed me crossroads i have never encountered in my life. but somehow, these challenges that required much thought and a lot of action weren't the easiest to oh-so-casually talk about (though ironically, my motherhood issues were easier to discuss... is it because it's a given?).

all i can say is that i pulled through. struggling a bit, but nonetheless i got out unscathed.

it's a wonder how i kept sane (i hear snickers... go ahead, i know i'm nowhere near getting a ticket to the loonybin) and somehow still on top of things. my guardian angels - both heavenly and real - did double time in watching over me, that's for sure.

again, there are a lot of things to be thankful for. and a lot of things i look forward to. i am blessed.

}!{
updated Love is Constipation

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[13 Sep 2006|01:19am]
the Mass for nikki's pasiyam spoke volumes.

thank you, Lord.
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[10 Sep 2006|06:01pm]
updated:
September 13, 2006
1:07am

salamat -
sa lahat-lahat.

i'm still a bit shook up, but i somehow regained my composure already.

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i will stop at thanking you. :)
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i shouldn't have... [01 Sep 2006|01:05pm]
the worst is yet to come.

wrote that a few days ago. AND I REGRET BEING PSYCHIC ABOUT THINGS.

now that i already have the bad come threefold, i am ready for the good that this brings me.

God, i really don't know what the big plan is, but i trust that You know best...
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